You're correct. I never have and never will - not in any reality.
I have to admit that I expected him to arrive long before he did. I've been waiting for it. Now that it's here, it's somewhat jarring.
Not for any reason of course. I'm sure you understand how strange it is to have those from your reality appear.
[The kitchen conversation between the three of them - Akechi will never share that he knows. Doesn't have a clue what to say beyond this. Doesn't want to defend someone he despises or promote someone who is better than him in every conceivable way.
And still-
He can't stop thinking about Kurusu Akira, only a couple meters down the hall.]
[Eren knows very well how "strange" it is to have others appear from his reality, yes - and it seems that only those that know him personally appear. As far as he can tell, that's true for almost everyone.
[So, Akechi expected Kurusu. Eren prepared a room for Armin, who still hasn't arrived; he still believes he will. So, he can't help but wonder what sort of connection Akechi and Kurusu truly have; this is no doubt the man that Akechi called a friend - or, something close to it, at least, to Eren's muddied recollection...
[He wishes he could ask Akechi to tell him how he feels. He wishes that he could picture any scenario in which Akechi wouldn't lie, deflect, withhold.
[They trust each other, but not enough, not in the right ways. The idea that Akechi might trust Kurusu more eats away at every bone in Eren's body. He doesn't want to be second choice. He's done the goddamn work to know whether or not seeing Kurusu's face makes him sick.]
It is jarring. [Eren sees him, at least.
[He cares about his pain, the potential for it - he truly does.]
[A prince would accept that response without question - what more could a person ask for than the illusion of unerring loyalty in a reality, many realities, among all realities where it lacks.
Akechi has manipulated him for this reason. Wanted to hear that from Eren for this reason. He isn't Maruki - he doesn't need the sentimental shit that comes with true loyalty. The second there's a way out, he won't hesitate to leave Eren behind to rot as a forgotten pariah in his own disgusting world.
But it stings -
Right in his chest
Where Robin Hood and Loki lie.
'His memory is distorted' - typed out. Deleted. Irrelevant. It's easier for for Akechi to manage. There's a simplicity in dealing with someone who knows so little. Who experienced nothing. Whose only memories of the two of them deal in moments that matter - a palace run, potential for betrayal. Akira lived an entire life without and beyond him - it's what's supposed to happen, so he doesn't care.
'Let's take a walk.' - typed out. Deleted. Unnecessary.
'Why? - typed out. Lingers. 'Why?' to someone who strangles air out lungs. It doesn't matter how strong he is - Akechi won't falter. 'Why?' in the same way he used to ask Maruki why because even to this day he cannot fathom what makes either of them tick.]
Noted.
[Is what he settles on.]
You're my ally. I extend the same to you.
[A lie - easy and simple. It's all the same shit. Eren wants to hear it, so Akechi will say it. Eren won't believe it, Akechi relays it all the same. It's a game. It's routine. It doesn't matter.]
If you have no other plans, you should stay over tomorrow night.
[Akechi doesn't care.]
Maruki is making sushi. There's too many leftovers lately, despite having another mouth to feed.
[He doesn't care.]
We haven't gone to the bathhouse in some time either. I would like to go with you.
[He wants to - it's that simple. Akechi Goro can satisfy passing whims in this world, so he does. The early morning hours tempting him in ways the rest of the day doesn't. ]
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I don't think you'd waste your time on packaged meat.
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I have to admit that I expected him to arrive long before he did. I've been waiting for it. Now that it's here, it's somewhat jarring.
Not for any reason of course. I'm sure you understand how strange it is to have those from your reality appear.
[The kitchen conversation between the three of them - Akechi will never share that he knows. Doesn't have a clue what to say beyond this. Doesn't want to defend someone he despises or promote someone who is better than him in every conceivable way.
And still-
He can't stop thinking about Kurusu Akira, only a couple meters down the hall.]
That's all I wanted to discuss with you.
god he's such a fucking hypocrite lskadjf
[So, Akechi expected Kurusu. Eren prepared a room for Armin, who still hasn't arrived; he still believes he will. So, he can't help but wonder what sort of connection Akechi and Kurusu truly have; this is no doubt the man that Akechi called a friend - or, something close to it, at least, to Eren's muddied recollection...
[He wishes he could ask Akechi to tell him how he feels. He wishes that he could picture any scenario in which Akechi wouldn't lie, deflect, withhold.
[They trust each other, but not enough, not in the right ways. The idea that Akechi might trust Kurusu more eats away at every bone in Eren's body. He doesn't want to be second choice. He's done the goddamn work to know whether or not seeing Kurusu's face makes him sick.]
It is jarring. [Eren sees him, at least.
[He cares about his pain, the potential for it - he truly does.]
My loyalty lies with you. Just remember that.
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Akechi has manipulated him for this reason. Wanted to hear that from Eren for this reason. He isn't Maruki - he doesn't need the sentimental shit that comes with true loyalty. The second there's a way out, he won't hesitate to leave Eren behind to rot as a forgotten pariah in his own disgusting world.
But it stings -
Right in his chest
'His memory is distorted' - typed out. Deleted. Irrelevant. It's easier for for Akechi to manage. There's a simplicity in dealing with someone who knows so little. Who experienced nothing. Whose only memories of the two of them deal in moments that matter - a palace run, potential for betrayal. Akira lived an entire life without and beyond him - it's what's supposed to happen, so he doesn't care.
'Let's take a walk.' - typed out. Deleted. Unnecessary.
'Why? - typed out. Lingers. 'Why?' to someone who strangles air out lungs. It doesn't matter how strong he is - Akechi won't falter. 'Why?' in the same way he used to ask Maruki why because even to this day he cannot fathom what makes either of them tick.]
Noted.
[Is what he settles on.]
You're my ally. I extend the same to you.
[A lie - easy and simple. It's all the same shit. Eren wants to hear it, so Akechi will say it. Eren won't believe it, Akechi relays it all the same. It's a game. It's routine. It doesn't matter.]
If you have no other plans, you should stay over tomorrow night.
[Akechi doesn't care.]
Maruki is making sushi. There's too many leftovers lately, despite having another mouth to feed.
[He doesn't care.]
We haven't gone to the bathhouse in some time either. I would like to go with you.
[He doesn't care.]
Regardless, I'll see you in the morning.
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[There are plenty of things that Eren struggles to remember, but there are things he knows inherently, too; they are, perhaps, even more valuable.
[He sees Akechi every morning, when the world is still dark, and only two people exist. He has for months now - practically since they met.
[There's nothing in this reality that could stop him from making that meeting. Akechi needs Eren as much as Eren needs him.]
I won't be able to get back to sleep.
The baths are always running, so let's just go now.
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Very well.
See you soon.