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abandonhumanity) wrote2023-09-26 12:38 pm
abandonhumanity) wrote2023-09-26 12:38 pm
PSL / MEME CONTINUATION
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine
and rage the likes of which you would not believe.
If I cannot satisfy the one,
I will indulge the other.
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[There’s something about Eren’s anger that doesn’t phase her anymore. It’s a jumpscare; he’s abrupt, he’s enraged, and Aubrey does flinch from the surprise alone (hard not to, the way he sends the room shaking)—but much as he spits venom, his words are impotent. They both know it. Why is he bothering with this?]
I— I wasn’t saying I hate you. [It’s disbelief on her face, more than anything, as Aubrey raises her hands; not high, not a full surrender, but a motion approaching it. What’s going on? Should she be concerned?] You know I can’t, for long— What don’t you believe?
[In her confusion, in turn, she barely takes note of “I could have given you everything you wanted.” But clearly, Eren doesn’t know what she wants at all....]
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I don't believe that you're counting down the minutes, waiting until you never have to see my face again.
[He's shoving words into her mouth with no basis; it's purely accusatory, unfounded, insecurity surfacing like an eruption. And from where? Fuck. Maybe he's gotten too used to the idea that his friends will remain loyal no matter what he says or does. He doesn't like that she doesn't fit into that box.]
"Why are you angry, Eren?"
[Eren whips around and slams his fist into the row of buttons, several of their caps popping off and clattering to the floor.
[He doesn't quite answer, but--]
It must be nice to have somewhere to return to! It must be nice to have a life you want.
[He's bitter, bitter, bitter, burning, burning, burning - he needs to get out of here, he wants to be free, he wants to be free!
[His chest is heaving for breath. He needs to calm down. He's lost all his dignity now; there's nothing but shame and rage left. He lets out an incredulous laugh. His eyes go back to Aubrey, burning. His voice is quieter, but there's no less hatred to it.]
You're stuck here. I'm stuck here. We both have nothing now. You want me to leave you? Tell the truth, Aubrey.
"Do you want him to leave you, Aubrey?"
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[Maybe Aubrey wasn’t quite right, thinking of Eren like a rabid animal. His fist collides with the buttons, clattering, and a different word comes to mind:
[Caged.]
[She’s too stunned to answer his first statement, but what is there to say? Of course she’s not. He’s gnashing; there’s no bite. The idea that she’s had any chance to process the life she’s lost—it’s ludicrous. “A life you want”? Aubrey couldn’t have scrounged up the words if she had the chance. He knows she can’t believe in fairytales.]
[The monster howls and snarls and whines and thrashes, in circle after circle after circle, biting its own tail.
[It’s kind of sad.]
“You want me to leave you?”
[It didn’t have to be repeated.]
No.
[It’s not even desperate. Not dry. Simple statement.
[The snake is writhing, and it’s just… a really sorry sight.]
No, I. I don’t.
[She watches him from across the room.]
“Do you want her to leave you, Eren?”
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Godammit, no!
[Ding!
[The door opens.]
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3/3
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[And… there he goes.]
[Strangely, it doesn’t feel like a revelation at all.]
[Aubrey takes a moment, surveying the wreckage. The buttons. The metal. There’s nothing outside but him. Strange....]
[But she walks out. Steps out to Eren Jaeger, as he turns, and gives his clenching hand a squeeze. Just for a second. Doesn’t grab or linger.]
I’m here.
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[He looks...young. Nineteen. Frightened. Confused.]
I can't do this.
[He backs away. He stares. He turns to leave.
[Just like that, Aubrey is alone.]